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Bibi outpost der Zee…"When I"m in need of comfort, a book is mostly the initial place I will go." Photograph: Lorna Roach

Going to the loo but a book! It is a surpassing shock. Instead of reading, I glance at the walls and notice that there are still dual dull nails on that I meant – a year ago – to cling to pictures. Also, I notice the dust on the building and the cobwebs on the ceiling. I clarity that I will be you do a lot some-more housework than usual this week.

Going to bed is bizarre. If there is one time of day I always, continually read, it is in bed prior to I go to sleep. On the initial night of my week but books, I download Being Human on the iPlayer and give my spike gloss a small peculiarity attention. But when the programme finishes and I try to close my eyes, my head is buzzing. My eyes keep bouncing open again. Boing. Boing. Boing.

I motionless to try giving up books for a week since I have come to the point where I consternation if they are holding me back. On the whole, the universe seems to think that books are continually a great thing, that you can never get as well majority of them. People confess to being bookworms in the same proceed they confess to being "just as well neat really", or "a bit of a workaholic". But if you are a compulsive reader similar to me, who reads on foot down the road, and whilst she"s creation her children"s dinner, and on the loo and in the bath and in bed and on the bus, and at each collect probable second of the day, and if what you"re celebration of the mass is mostly . . . well . . . pulp, afterwards infrequently you finish up feeling as if books are eating you up instead of the collect proceed round. Sure, there"s a superficial knowledge of novel and high art-type things in there, but mostly it is whatever I have fished off the shelf at my nearest Oxfam that sunrise – investigator stories, romances, horror, sci fi . . . any kind of novella that I can sup down in large enough, discerning sufficient bites.

I am customarily celebration of the mass three, infrequently 4 books, with a raise of books watchful in box I run out. I never leave the residence but my book, and if I"m receiving a sight I"ll customarily have a fill-in book in box I finish the initial one. I"d rather review than do housework or laundry, and infrequently I"d rather review than speak to friends or father or family. I"ve been well known to foot my young kids off out in to the grassed area or switch on the TV – "or anything, customarily dirt with grass off for 10 minutes!" – so that I can eventually be alone with my book; worse still, I continually stoop to the summons call of the stream novel when I am ostensible to be working.

This problem, you would think, could be simply dealt with by giving up celebration of the mass books. So out of pristine oddity I do. And by Tuesday, after the initial day of feeling unequivocally peculiar indeed, I proceed to think that I"m removing the cling to of this. Instead of reading, I have records for work, or review the papers, or neat the kitchen. During a sight tour up to London in the afternoon, I open up my laptop instead of snuggling in to my chair with my book. I feel utterly purposeful, actually, as if I am concentrating scrupulously on my life, instead of wishing it afar so that I can get to my book.

On Wednesday, I get myself a small breakfast after you do the propagandize run. Instead of eating hunched pleasurably over a book, I see out of the window and gnaw each swig thoroughly, wakeful of each singular oat and bulb and dusty bit of apple as it goes down. When the young kids get home with a small friends, I finish up you do a small colouring-in instead of skulking in the kitchen creation their cooking with a book in my hand. The square of me that has continually sneakily wondered if hold up competence not be easier and some-more candid but these excursions in to illusory worlds is going, "You see? You see?".

But the rest of me is blank books similar to a drug, to the border that I begin to consternation if it essentially is a small kind of drug. The peculiar thing is that when I try to find out some-more about it, about either celebration of the mass novella produces a small kind of hormone in your mind, no one seems to know. Robert Darnton, executive of the Harvard Library and a dilettante in the story of the book, tells me: "Reading is mysterious, and we don"t unequivocally assimilate how it is that we have clarity of these signs that are embedded in paper or on computer screens. There have been attempts by cognitive scientists to magnitude the containing alkali exchanges in the brain, but as far as I can discuss it no scientist has unequivocally entirely explained it. They"re operative on it."

So we don"t know customarily what is happening, how the piles of pages or markings on the shade are remade in to collect worlds inside the minds. But we do know that the brain practice what the characters we are celebration of the mass about experience. In a book entrance out subsequent year about the psychology of fiction, Professor Keith Oatley describes a square of investigate where scientists got people to review whilst they were in a brain scanner. "When readers were intent in a story, the researchers found that, at the points in that the story pronounced a male lead undertook an action, the square of the brain that was activated was the square that the reader himself or herself would make use of to commence the action. So, when the story- male lead pulled a light cord, a segment in the frontal lobes of the reader"s brain compared with rapacious things was activated."

The actuality is that in evolutionary terms, celebration of the mass in an escapist proceed is a unequivocally new human activity, zero similar to as normal a process of self-medication as drink, say, or even drugs. For majority of the history, celebration of the mass has been finished by customarily a couple of specialists, and aloud. In the fifth century, Saint Augustine was famously nonplussed by the uncanny day to day of Saint Ambrose: "When he read, his eyes scanned the page and his heart sought out the meaning, but his voice was wordless and his tongue was still. Anyone could proceed him openly and guest were not ordinarily announced, so that often, when we came to revisit him, we found him celebration of the mass similar to this in silence, for he never review aloud."

It wasn"t until some-more than a thousand years later, and with the invention of the novel, that it became some-more usual to review silently to yourself, and additionally that it began, as an occupation, to be concerned the authorities. In Germany in the 18th and 19th centuries, "reading epidemics" swept the country. In France, certain novels were deliberate a hazard to the state, and censored; a small authors were even murdered. In England, ubiquitous disregard for novels led Jane Austen in Northanger Abbey to come out of impression quickly to sexually urge her associate novelists whose "productions have afforded some-more endless and influenced wish than those of any collect well review house in the world" but whose "foes are roughly some-more than the readers".

And celebration of the mass has not left away. The hold of novella on the open has one after another to grow and grow, and right afar books are seen as a far healthier collect to TV or computer games. They go on to be devoured by a public, who paid for 235.7m books in the UK in 2009, and who are not interlude shopping books notwithstanding the economy (sales customarily fell by 0.5%). "We review some-more during recessions," says Darnton. "During the Great Depression, the Chicago open living room was filled with readers, and I"m flattering certain you"ll find the same is loyal now. It"s an shun from stress."

Ah yes, stress. By Thursday, my early heat has ragged off after a prolonged day coping with winter, an ill parent, one quite grouchy son, and the ubiquitous detritus of life. I am incredibly tetchy and snappy; some-more than usual? Impossible to know (everyone"s as well frightened to discuss it me), but Friday is the same and even a small worse and I can"t find any proceed to relax, to switch off and get afar from the things that you list in your head at 11.30pm at night. After propagandize on Friday evening, when the boys have had tea and watched a bit of TV, they pole off downstairs for a diversion of censor and seek, and I unemployment down on to the lounge for a half hour that would customarily engage a novel, a cuppa, and may be a biscuit. Instead, after staring at the wall for a bit, I fetch my laptop and do a small some-more work. Life feels deeply, wintrily joyless. It feels wall-to-wall grey.

Books, I realise, have been one of my longest, truest friends. When I"m anxious, sad, angry, in need of comfort, a book is mostly the initial place I will go: I even have books that I continually re-read when I"m feeling quite horrible (can I customarily suggest the Bitch in the House if you"ve been a quite bad mom that day?). And right afar I have customarily expel them aside, as if all my flaws are their fault, and not the collect proceed round.

The day that the anathema is lifted, I wait for until the young kids have left to bed, and afterwards collect up the novel I was median by when the mattock fell, flow a potion of booze and solve down with it, a bit disturbed that someway (like the initial smoke of a fag when you"ve since up smoking for a while) it won"t be as great as before, that someway I will have spoilt it.

But there"s no need to worry. Immediately, it is as if the habit doors to Narnia have been thrown open again and thousands of collect technicolour lives have tumbled true behind out from that eighth dimension inside my head. Day-to-day hold up customarily fades out, I stop worrying, stop twitching and customarily dont think about who or where I am for a beautiful hour. I have still not got around to unresolved those cinema in the bathroom. But reader, I am never giving up books again.